I Never Told You

I miss those blue eyes
How you kiss me at night
I miss the way we sleep

Like there's no sunrise
Like the taste of your smile
I miss the way we breathe

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

I see your blue eyes
Everytime I close mine
You make it hard to see
Where I belong to
When I'm not around you
It's like I'm alone with me


But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you

But I never told you
What I should have said
No, I never told you
I just held it in

And now,
I miss everything about you
Can't believe that I still want you
And after all the things we've been through
I miss everything about you
Without you




=)

Updates

Hey y'all! How you doin? =D

Excuse me for the negligence of updating my oh so very interesting blog(pfft hahahahahaha). I've been quite busy lately. Exams are round the corner and I literally cannot be bothered. I've resigned as Head so now there's one less thing to think about when I do whatever it is that I want to do in school. Anyways, Yi Qin's party was on the 22nd of August and I must say the company and food was really good. Lester picked me up at like 4.45pm (yes, I know it's EXTREMELY early) as he didn't want to get lost..We were the only two there at first so I decided to feed her fishes. It was exciting. Met a few mates there as well, Nic's friends. =)

Anyways, Merdeka is coming up. I usually post patriotic songs and stuff like that during August but like I've already typed out, I've had quite a bit to deal with including lazyness. We have been asked to wear traditional outfits to school on monday. Tuesday's a holiday! yey! Can't wait for that. These are the few things that have happened and are about to happen. I'm lazy to type out the other stuff so yeah...byeee for now!

Stand by me.

No I won't be afraid,
No I won't be afraid,
Just as long, as you stand
Stand by me..
And Darlin' Darlin' Stand bye me,
Oh now now stand by me,
Stand by me,
Stand by me


I feel like an old pregnant woman who can barely walk. No..I'm not exaggerating although, I don't really know what an old pregnant woman feels like. I'm sure it's what I am going through..haha

My back is literally eating me alive. It hurts and the feeling is appalling. I have acute arthritis as well. How fun. My tail bone hurts everytime I stand up and walk the first few steps. I don't deserve this for heaven's sake, I'm not even 17 yet. GRR

Baby

This issue has been bugging my life so I have decided to blog about it. Has anyone realized how many babies or children have been abandoned by their parents?Has anyone ever wondered what was going through the mother's mind when she dumped her new born baby into the dustbin? Isn't anybody going to stop this from happening?! Those pale things that you dump aren't toys you know! What is the point of keeping the foetus in your body for 9-10 months and then just throwing it away? Why go through so much trouble? If you didn't want the child couldn't you have just gotten an abortion? Don't you feel sorry for what you've done? Why is it that society has been talking about this matter but till now no action has been taken? HELLO??!! People are taking life for granted here. CAN SOMEONE PLEASE DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT? I would, but I can't as I'm apoparently too young to bring this matter up. Gahh. FTW

You and I

Well then, I guess it's true how the elders say that you never really know what you have until it's gone. I know they're suffering now and I know I am not disturbed by it. They should have learnt to appreciate more. It's a little too late now. Dismissal letter will be sent out and I.Will.NOT.Regret.My.Decisions.

Danny Dutton

I came across a random blog which was specially for stories and I happened to read this one which I thought and still think is adorable coming from an 8-year old child. This child was asked to write anything at all on ''Explain God''. I don't really think this is the right topic to grade a child by but yeah whatever. haha


How to Explain God was written by Danny Dutton, age8, from Chula Vista, California, for his third grade homework assignment"Explain God". "One of God's main jobs is making people. He makes them to replace the ones that die so there will be enough people to take care of things on earth. He doesn't make grown-ups, just babies. I think because they are smaller and easier to make. That way He doesn't have to take up His valuable time teaching them to talk and walk. He can just leave that to mothers and fathers.

"God's second most important job is listening to prayers. An awful lot of this goes on, since some people, like preachers and things, pray at times besides bedtime. God doesn't have time to listen to the radio or TV because of this. Because He hears everything, there must be a terrible lot of noise in His ears, unless He has thought of a way to turn it off. "God sees everything and hears everything and is everywhere which keeps Him pretty busy. So you shouldn't go wasting His time by going over your mom and dad's head asking for something they said you couldn't have." Atheists are people who don't believe in God. I don't think there are any in Chula Vista. At least there aren't any who come to our church."

Jesus is God's Son. He used to do all the hard work like walking on water and performing miracles and trying to teach the people who didn't want to learn about God. They finally got tired of Him preaching to them and they crucified Him.

But He was good and kind, like His Father and He told His Father that they didn't know what they were doing and to forgive them and God said O.K.

"His Dad (God) appreciated everything that He had done and all His hard work on earth so He told Him He didn't have to go out on the road anymore. He could stay in heaven. So He did.

And now He helps His Dad out by listening to prayers and seeing things which are important for God to take care of and which ones He can take care of Himself without having to bother God. Like a secretary, only more important.

"You can pray anytime you want and they are sure to help you because they got it worked out so one of them is on duty all the time.

"You should always go to Church on Sunday because it makes God happy, and if there's anybody you want to make happy, it's God.

Don't skip church to do something you think will be more fun like going to the beach. This is wrong. And besides the sun doesn't come out at the beach until noon anyway.

"If you don't believe in God, besides being an atheist, you will be very lonely, because your parents can't go everywhere with you, like to camp, but God can. It is good to know He's around you when you're scared in the dark or when you can't swim and you get thrown into real deep water by big kids."

But you shouldn't just always think of what God can do for you. I figure God put me here and He can take me back anytime He pleases.And that's why I believe in God.

Grand Dorset

Sang horribly....AGAIN =(

Update

GUESS WHAT?! Another performance on Saturday! No idea where the Hotel is though. (=.=)
Anyways, I'm planning to wear the gold dress which Aunty Jackie bought for me! <33 I love it! I really do. Thanks Aunty Jackie! I'll be going out tomorrow to buy myself new black heels since my last pair looks distorted now. Tania is picking me up and I think we'll be in the mall for a bit. I'm excited about the outing.


On the other hand,

My back is really killing me. The pain was in the lower back initially because that's where a certain Genius's foot landed after doing a flip. Guess who =.=
I spent half of last night making ice and placing it on my back. Today though the pain has gone all the way up my spinal chord and I feel like my mom. =.=

14.6.10

You know what's the horrid thing about getting someone cremated? You can't visit them ever again. It's like..the end. At least when someone is buried you get that sense of comfort that the person who has been buried isn't that far away from you and you can physically visit his/her grave and pay your respects and well just spend time. Some people say it's better to cremate the body but you know when you think about it, cremation leaves you noting but memories to hold on to. Sometimes memories just aren't enough. Sometimes you wish you had more time to say a few things which you might have forgotten to say. Sometimes you just want to feel that bond that you shared with him/her who has deceased.





Today marks the 3rd year. I miss you.

New layout

See my blog!! It's so prettified now! I love how you are greeted by an explosion of colours and then things mellow down as you scroll downwards. =D It's excellent! I love it I love it I love it!!! Blogger came up with this whole new 'design' concept where you can pick more themes and play around with the colours and stuff. It's juste stupéfiant. I'm going to visit my blog more often from now onwards.

Birthday!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RESHWEEN!!!!!!

I was supposed to stay up till 11.58 and send her a message saying happy birthday so that I could be the last one to wish her for that day, but I slept off. I'm sorry!! I only realized this morning.. =(

17 isn't really that old. Look at the bright side, you'll be able to drive soon =D

Monsters.Inc

This was taken today..Look at the little monster's face ^^ tsk tsk tsk



This was taken last year... ^^


Adorable much. She's recovering,thank goodness for that. Just one more year of treatments and that's the end of all hospital visits. Yey for her! Today she came over, made a birds nest on my bed with leaves and started her story telling session.. The boy on the other hand refused to sit still, so I couldn't really snap a pic of him. He's gorgeous now. I wish I had his eyelashes, seeeriously!! If only he was older and not my cousin... pfft...

Home

I can't believe they're going to sing this for MP. I hope it works out..hahaha

Another summer day
Has come and gone away
In Paris and Rome
But I wanna go home
Mmmmmmmm

May be surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
I just wanna go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

And I’ve been keeping all the letters that I wrote to you
Each one a line or two
“I’m fine baby, how are you?”
Well I would send them but I know that it’s just not enough
My words were cold and flat
And you deserve more than that

Another aeroplane
Another sunny place
I’m lucky, I know
But I wanna go home
Mmmm, I’ve got to go home

Let me go home
I’m just too far from where you are
I wanna come home

And I feel just like I’m living someone else’s life
It’s like I just stepped outside
When everything was going right
And I know just why you could not
Come along with me
'Cause this was not your dream
But you always believed in me

Another winter day has come
And gone away
In even Paris and Rome
And I wanna go home
Let me go home

And I’m surrounded by
A million people I
Still feel all alone
Oh, let me go home
Oh, I miss you, you know

Let me go home
I’ve had my run
Baby, I’m done
I gotta go home
Let me go home
It will all be all right
I’ll be home tonight
I’m coming back home

1st June 2010

'I cry to you, my Lord, my rock! Do not be deaf to me, for if you are silent, I shall go down to the pit like the rest. Hear my voice raised in petition as I cry to you for help, as I raise my hands, towards your holy of holies.'


He read the bible day in and day out. He was faithful throughout. He was patient. HE was amazing. He helped everyone who needed help. He gave without expecting anything in return. He cared because it was his nature. He stood by her and supported her through thick and thin. He was a gem of a man. In fact, the very word 'man' if used on this individual, is degrading. He was there for his family and mine. In the end he was stripped of everything he owned including his rice bowl, by his very own 'family'. He knew it was her, but he forgave her because he is the kind of individual the world lacks.



'Love is always patient and kind. It is never jealous. Love is never boastful or conceited. It is never rude or selfish. It does not take offense and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delight in truth. It is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes.'


He forgave them before he left. I miss him terribly especially knowing that it is going to be three years now since he left. Christmas just isn't the same anymore. In fact, nothing has been the same since he left.





I'm sorry I didn't have a chance to say thank you. We miss you.

Results

Elo baybehh, you so sexayhh!!



Chemistry paper 1 -40/50 &^#$ YEAH!!!!



Today has to be the happiest day of my week so far. =D



Exams are so mundane. They make you feel horrid especially when results are out. It's disheartening honestly when you try your best and instead score really low marks. It's even more annoying when this specific person says ''Don't worry, It's not in the exam!'' and that very thing he or she said which supposedly isn't included actually comes out. GRR. I keel you. Lost the blogging mode. Will blog perhaps after the exams. =.=



Till then byeiloveyou.

Loser

Gaius needs a new phone. Such a bum. I sent him a message asking him to meet me the other day but then his phone had to die before he even received the message from me. pfffffft. I hate his phone. I really really really do. Stupid Gaius. I miss you.





Also, I bumped into Samad on Friday. XD XD Well technically she bumped into me. Haha should've seen her smile. So adorable. Tania and I had chili's as per usual, where we met a cute waiter, as per usual, who checked her out, as per usual =). We laughed at and about the stupidest things and enjoyed dinner =)

Neways.. I'm going to try and attempt to do something productive. Bye

Moral

This baby, is what I have in my head for tomorrow;

Cinta akan negara: Perasaan sayang dan bangga terhadap negara serta meletakkan kepentingan negara melebihi kepentingan diri

Taat Setia Kepada Raja Dan Negara: Kepatuhan dan kesetiaan yang berkekalan terhadap Raja dan Negara

Sanggup berkorban untuk negara: Kerelaan melakukan atau menyerahkan sesuatu termasuk nyawa sebagai tanda kebaktian kepada Negara

Menyayangi dan menghargai alam sekitar: Kesedaran tentang perlunya memulihara dan memelihara alam sekeliling untuk mengekalkan keseimbangan ekosistem.

Keharmonian antara manusia dengan alam sekitar: Keadaan saling memerlukan hubungan yang harmonis antara manusia dengan alam sekitar supaya kualiti kehidupan terpelihara.

Kemapanan alam sekitar:Prihatin terhadap persoalan alam sekeliling dan berusaha menyelesaikannya.

Peka terhadap isu-isu alam sekitar: Pengekalan keseinbangan alam sekeliling sebagai tanggungjawab bersama untuk kesejahteraan hidup.

Kasih sayang terhadap Keluarga: Perasaan cinta kasih dan sayang yang mendalam serta berkekalan terhadap keluarga

Don't forget

Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?

Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it

So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget

We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it

Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all

And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don?t forget us

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don't forget

You so awesome like that

Blue as the sky,
Sunburnt and lonely ,
Sipping tea at the bar by the roadside,
just relax just relax...

Don't you let those other boys fool you,
Gotta love that afro hairdo

Exam*(#$%@inations

BM1

BM2

Sejarah 1 (I slept off)



I'm tired.

My brain cells are fried.

I'm going to sleep now.


Tomorrow's Agenda:
-ENG1
-ENG 2
-Maths 1




Ps: I hope the stupid road not to be taken poem doesn't come out.

A little bliss in her life

Her ears love the vibrations caused by instruments. Whenever the vibrations are present, it's almost like the visible body disintegrates and her soul is left bare in all it's nakedness, so vulnerable yet invisible to man. So delicate, so fragile... This is one of the soft spots that she has. It's almost like there is not a day that goes by without the presence of those vibrations in her life. That special bond between the waves created by these vibrations and her soul have grown so intimate that everytime she listens and absorbs these sound waves, her soul is uplifted

Peranan wanita

Kita sering mendengar slogan yang berbunyi "Pemuda harapan bangsa, Pemudi tiang negara." Kita juga sering mendengar kata-kata bahawa seseorang lelaki yang berjaya, sesunguhnya dibelakangnya berdiri seorang wanita yang memberi sokongan dan inspirasi kepadanya. Malah pepatah juga ada menyatakan bahawa "tangan yang munghayun buaian itu, boleh menggoncang dunia." Jelaslah kaum wanita dilihat sebagai golongan yang bukan sahaja menggambarkan kelembutan tetapi juga memperlihatkan kewibawaan dan karisma tersendiri. Demikian bahawa wanita berperanan dalam memupuk serta melahirkan generasi yang berkualiti, berfikiran mantap dan juga berketerampilan.

Peranan wanita didefinasikan sebagai suatu tugas, tanggunjawab, atau amanah yang dipegang oleh kaum perempuan sama ada dalam segi individu atau secara keseluruhannya. Perkataan 'melahirkan' pula membawa maksud suatu usaha yang berterusan dengan penuh kegigihan yang membawa hasil daripada sesuatu tindakan atau pengaruh. 'Generasi berkualiti' pula didefinasikan sebagai kumpulan yang berkarisma tinggi dan sangat berketerampilan dalam aspek rohani dan jasmani, emosi, peranan dan jati diri. Secara keseluruhannya, kaum wanita bertanggunjawab untuk mewujudkan generasi baru yang mampu menanggung beban dunia di atas bahu dan masih menunjukkan kemantapan dalam cara pemikiran.

Don't cry me a river

I cannot seem to express my feelings towards this person much in the place I am sent to everyday to obtain knowledge. Therefore, I shall come clean here.

His very living, breathing, existence annoys the daylights out of me. I have had it with him. This relationship has flourished to an extent that I refuse to work anywhere near him or even look at his face. I have tried very very hard to ignore him and to let his opinions brush past me. I have even told my super-awesome educator about this problem and she has very kindly permitted the switch of his station for duty. I thought I would obviously have a little bit more peace with this change, till today. My buddy complained to me saying that he pushed her with words which ticked her off. Literally EVERYONE has had it with his behavior. He just complains endlessly without bothering to give any suggestions on how to overcome certain issues. Sweetheart, that just is not the way to talk and get things done. If you are not happy with certain issues, please bring it up and suggest a way to overcome it. We cannot be doing everything for you.

Also darling, please know that my lovebugs and I are in charge of making sure you guys do your stuff. I avoid you and you complain about me. Seriously.. this is immature and I cannot have this feeling anymore. I am going to talk to you tomorrow. Please don't cry.

Mother

I originated from the hard work of two cells. Those two minute cells formed one big cell which then multiplied..and multiplied for 9 whole months. I was brought into this world on a fine September evening..or was it morning? Oh well..anyways... I was cared for and nursed in a place which now I call home.. I used to be troublesome I think. When I was a child, I used to cry every two hours at night to be fed.. I used to break things and scream. I'm glad she never gave up on me or gave me up for adoption or something. I'm so glad she took the pain to take care of me.

Nevertheless, I was cared for and nourished by one woman. She woke up everytime I cried for food. She always gave me what I needed. She was there for me when I was upset. She scolded me for making mistakes. I honestly feel terrible for talking back to her or getting mad at her. I never really told her how grateful I am to have her around and how much I appreciate her. I mean It would be awkward if you randomly walked up to your mother and said ''mom..I appreciate you''
I mean honestly. I bought her cupcakes from the Carnival at school yesterday. My cousins are coming over later so we'll be celebrating Mother's Day and my cousin's birthday today.



Anyways, to all mothers out there.. ''Happy Mommy's Day!''

May

11th May..not far off... What do I give her?

Imbibe them for they release you

The Mind is a bundle of thoughts. Thoughts determine the nature of man's actions. Happiness and sorrow are the result of his actions. Whatever good or bad he experiences in life is the direct result of man's actions. The root cause of his actions are his thoughts. Thoughts make the mind, and the mind makes man. Man is so named because of his origin from the mind. He has no existence without his mind. One endowed with the mind is called man. Birds, animals and plants have no mind. If the feeling behind the action is good, it is bound to yield good result, but if the feeling is evil, the result is bound to be the same. Speech comes from the mind, the mind comes from the depths of knowledge your soul holds.

The powers that are present in man are not seen in any other species. In fact, all powers are inherent in man. He should channelize then in proper direction. Never postpone good actions....Never. Virtues are the most effective means for purifying the inner conscience of man. They prompt individuals to discover what to do and how to do it. Only those who have earned good destiny can claim their excellence in discrimination. Adherence to discrimination is the raft which takes man over the sea of life and death into immortality which in the end liberates the very soul within.

sunshine

Hello all! I just wish to say...yes I'm still alive.. =)

Let me show you what you're missing

An educational exhibition was held in school today. It fascinates me how every year colleges are invited to come to our school to promote themselves and every year without fail medical colleges will not be invited. Anyways, I collected a whole load of plastic bags and brochures from the representatives of most of the colleges. It was fun. =)

After the representatives left, I was instructed to ask the students of two classes to claim their tables which were used earlier for the exhibition.. Obviously many of them in one of the two classes went down to carry their tables up. The other class.... * shakes head*

Let's leave that aside, Autism Walk is being held in Sri Aman tomorrow!! I'm so EXCITED!! I will be meeting shangkra, carol (i think), Kimberly, LYDIA <33 and all my old classmates. I just cannot wait. I hope it turns out as AWESOME as I hope it would.

I have nothing else to say. I'm exhilarated from today's running up and down the stairs and all over the place.

G'night

Imagine by John Lenon

Imagine there's no Heaven
It's easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people
Living for today

Imagine there's no countries
It isn't hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people
Sharing all the world

You may say that I'm a dreamer
But I'm not the only one
I hope someday you'll join us
And the world will live as one

Mashed up

I'm eating a hot crossed bun right now, just so you'll know.. =D All right, I have many random things to say to you today! Read all the way okay?


Have you listened to Chris Colfer's song Defying Gravity? His voice is so cool! It's nothing like Justin Bieber's though..and no I do not like the Bieber. In my opinion he's just a little boy. If you seem to like Justin Bieber, you should definitely listen to Chris Colfer. He is SOOOOO much better especially since defying gravity is a girl's song. You would not think it is a guy who is singing the song. I'm hooked on the song thanks to Ryan Tan. Nicole wouldn't like it but I'm sure Yi Qin would. =) I should be studying but I studied all the way yesterday, I'm just exhausted now. I'm going to attempt finishing chapter 1 and 2 of sejarah next week. I'll try hard, I promise..



Oh yes, I've deactivated my facebook account for now because I spend too much time on it and I think I should be a little more proactive with studies. I really am running out of time. We've only got 220 something days left. THIS IS NOT FUN but the faster I get prepared the better I will feel.



I also broke my glasses last night.... for the second time. Don't ask.






http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-ca3p0i30Pc&NR=1 << go and watch this guy sing true colors and defying gravity. AMAZING.

You, me and the world around us

Since I have a feeling you'll see this soon,

Hello Ms.Yogeetha!!!! XD

How do you do?



=D







hee hee heeeeeeeeeee

Please fly far away from me

I am SICK and TIRED of you. I am SICK and TIRED of failing YOUR subject. How am I supposed to motivate myself to try and at least touch an 'A-' for your subject when you keep failing me?!! How is anybody going to pass your subject?! If the graph drops...don't blame us..you who called me culture-less, mannerless and borderless is going around calling people MUCH older than you by snapping your fingers and calling their name. You said I don't have respect. I know you are not happy with the post I hold and trust me, I would LOVE to say it in your face..you know I would but you also know I cannot because I am now tied down with responsibilities.


I don't understand how you qualified to get this job. You are smart, you know your facts..but you can't produce a proper method which results in us understanding your sentences. I don't know if I should study or even put in the least amount of effort to try and pass your subject because I know that people who have been working their butts off can't seem to score proper results.. I only have two words for you which I'm sure every other individual would agree with...

''PLEASE LEAVE''

The universe...you..and I

We were born as individuals. Little souls, so pure...so positive. Everything and everyone we saw when we first opened our eyes was treated equally. We knew nothing. We were just a minute piece of the universe...another living being. Then our cells multiplied and we were introduced to a phenomenon known as growth. We grew all right with the guidance our our parents or to some of us, guardians. We were subconsciously dragged into different cultures and races. Not that it is a bad thing, but we seem to have forgotten our routes. Where we originated from. Who we actually are. When a person asks us "What exactly are you? or what race are you?'' what do you exactly answer them? In the first place, I honestly think that this question should not be asked at all. Does it really matter what skin colour you have? or the way you look?

It's time for us to understand that we have been separated. This is the cause of war. People have forgotten that when we were born, we were ALL the SAME. We should not be judged by colour, race, religion, culture, tradition or even by the countries we live in. We are after all related to one another. It's hard now..to treat everyone equally. Some personalities may cause chemistry...others, friction. We are humans and that definitely is considered normal, but we should at least try.

Do I make sense?

MAC

Will someone do me a major favor? Pretty pretty pretty please with a chocolate mousse base, extra cream, chopped almonds and two cherries on top? You see that sexay picture on top?? Yeah... I'd be an extra special friend and I promise to love you throughout your lifetime till death do us part if you get me the 120 colour palette from MAC for my birthday =DDD



I've been dreaming of it ever since.. I really need it.. There's not a specific word to express to you how much I need it. I could do so many things with it.. I promise I will love you if you get it for me... Seriously...

Badgebadgebadgebadgebadgebadge!!!

*takes a deep breath*
























*pauses*

I HAVE A BADGE!!!! A GOLD BADGE!! A PRETTY ONE WHICH SHINES AND SPARKLES ON MY TIE!!! I'M OFFICIALLY IN LOVE!!!


Want to know what it says?? XD



I'll tell you anyway..











HEAD PREFECT
SHILPA

$$$$

SPM is too expensive.. tsk tsk tsk. Why do we have to pay for an exam which is compulsory? If they make it compulsory then we shouldn't have to pay..
Another reason for em to bring up this topic is I'm dead broke..

AiNeedMoney!! =(

Excuse me

I am tired. Tired of everything that you think benefits everyone. I'm here to support you no doubt, but I cannot afford to leave classes anymore to carry out my responsibilities. Perhaps we can make some sort of arrangement? Because honestly, this is not helping me in my studies. I'm slogging just for one sentence on a piece of paper.. It's not fair. I'm tired. I would not lie to you.

The future as I see it

The future is an ever expanding dream. A dream shared by many on this planet we call our home. A dream..that to many has yet to come true..but to me is called reality. You would agree with me that when I state that even as you are reading my senseless statements I have typed, you have a million thoughts running through your mind. Every emotion you feel now,in this very minute, will not be same in the next few minutes. These new emotions bring a change in the way you think. New thoughts are formed and causes action. Therefore, are you not encountering what was earlier called future but now understood as reality? Your future depends on you. You cannot blame anyone else for failing a subject in an examination because you brought it upon yourself. You did not study because you were busy having fun and ignored your priorities.. You are in charge of your own future. You decide what is to be done. You make the decisions. You are the only one who matters in your future...that is of course until you get old and grey and would like to share your future with a partner.. But I'm too exhausted to think more on this matter...so I am going to sleep.

but just before I leave.. See that picture all the way on top of the post..yeah that super cool footprint... Well you won't think it's cool once it's destroyed our home. REDUCE YOUR CARBON FOOTPRINTS PEOPLE!!

You

I miss you! I haven't seen your face in ages that it's almost unbelievable. I have no one to talk to.





I have reduced complaining about random things and now seeing as it is the holidays, I seem to have too much time one my hands which makes everything much more horrid. When people ask me if being the only child gives you more time and more fun...I usually say yes to prevent myself from looking like a complete fool. You people out there who have siblings, love every minute of your arguments, don't take your siblings for granted and no matter what happens be there for them. It sucks being alone...yes A-L-O-N-E. I honestly do not like it and it's definitely something I do not want to get used to. It's annoying me. My mind cannot be left alone for too long. I might kill myself.. I do not like myself as much as I used to anymore. I do not like me at all... I'm weird...



ps: Come back from Shah Alam puhleaseeee.

Don't cry me a river..

I like making random people happy... I like seeing people happy.. =)


Amanah-Sikap tanggunjawab yang boleh menimbulkan rasa keyakinan dan kepercayaan orang lain terhadap diri seseorang.

Attention to Moral,finally...

I have made it a point to dedicate 36 days of my life this year to MEMORIZE all of my ''nilai murni'' for moral. I will post the definition of a value after at least every entry.. =)









Kepercayaan Kepada Tuhan- Keyakinan wujudnya tuhan sebagai pencipta alam dan mematuhi segala suruhannya berlandaskan agama masing-masing selaras dengan rukun negara.

Halo

Know that i'll always be here for you, no matter what... You're one of my closest friends.. =D Don't be a stranger..

You look so dumb right now..

Dear Mr.Stalker,

I hope you understand that one sided love does not benefit anybody, especially when you are in love with a person you've just met. So please do take me seriously when I say ''Get the Hell out of my life!'' when I finally decide to tell you. You are annoying me. It's already embarrassing to find out about you having a crush on me FROM YOUR FRIEND...through SMS.... and it felt worst when you said you ''love'' me.. You don't even know what love is..give me a break.. and if you are a guy, you would have told me on your own.. You just proved to me that you are a wimp as your FRIEND had to call me and tell me what you wanted to say. That my boy puts you way way wayyy beneath feathery strokers.


ps: GO AWAY!

Thanks for hope

It rained today quite heavily I must add as I repeat I dislike the rain very very very much. I have decided to use the word dislike in this context as the word hate is quite harsh. So as I was saying, it rained cats,dogs, ducks and every other animal you can think of, today. I also wanted to say,I did it again, but this time I was aware of every single word I typed out and sent. I looked through the papers for the second time this year and I had that urge, the sudden need to do something. So I decided to text random people from the obituary section in the papers. I sent three people messages saying condolences from me on the demise of their family member. I honestly did not expect any reply, thus, I was shocked when one of the random numbers called me. Obviously my instinct told me not to answer. So I let it vibrate until the caller decided to stop calling. When the vibration of the phone finally stopped, I sent the number a reply saying '' No, you do not know me, but I read the papers today and decided to send my condolences to you and your family..''









I received a reply from the person saying ''Thanks, to a kind person.'' <3

It made my day. Thanks random person for making my day. Thanks also for showing me that I'm not weird.. and reminding me that little things, no matter how weird or uncivilized it seems, matter a lot for people in need.

Condolences

I did a weird thing today... I don't normally read the newspapers because I cannot handle the pages and how they flap all over the place, but today I decided that I have to change that habit. I read the papers all the way to the obituary, and usually I would just go through who passed away recently. Today I did something different sub-consciously and I don't know why I did it. I sent condolences to that family from my family via sms... I am sure that I do not know that person at all and I am still trying to figure out why I sent the message... What if they find me stalkerish?? =O I just realized...






Death doesn't always do us part, it actually makes us closer and stronger if we realize it.

Batu Caves

Today is another, as carol would say, ''Yindian'' Day... My genius of a mother wanted to go to of all places BATU CAVES....on THAIPUSAM... I obviously declined her request to go there..but she dragged me along. Getting into the train itself was HORRIBLE...the stale smell, too many bodies against each other...and too many indians in one place.. Anyways..so yeah we got down at Batu Caves and walked...and walked....and walked..and walked.. under the SWELTERING sun.. Mom was sooo persistent to get her anklets.. and I must say I've hated anklets since I was a child because they make too much noise..especially the traditional ones. Well today, on the 30th of January 2010, I decided to get myself thick silver anklets......yes..the traditional ones..I'm actually excited about it..well duuh..if not I wouldn't actually be blogging about it now would I..

Anyways.. We bought food and more punjabi suits...then I saw two very familiar adorable faces in the crowd! Guess who...










Andrew Anil and Dasara!!

Damn cute! You should have seen their super red, sweaty faces..hahahaha Mom talked to Andrew for a bit..then we walked on..had like an enormous coconut to eat and drink which happened to be my lunch for the day.


Came home and wore the anklets...now I'm bored.....again

Cross 3 kilometers of the country with me

I'm upset....I know for a fact that I'm fat, but you honestly didn't have to bring ALL of my confidence down.. seriously.. I mean there were others who didn't complete the race... why pick on me? I had so much of respect for you before this...but after you said that to me..I can tell you I don't even like looking at your stupid face anymore.. I understand I'm not as good as the other girls and that I can't run or do anything to do with sports because I'm useless..but you really didn't have to say that...

Life and Death

Death... What exactly happens after it? Do we still continue living? Do we still experience emotions? Where do we go? Where will we live? Is there really a heaven? What really happens?? What happens to believers when they die..and what about non-believers? Not believing is not a sin after all. Everyone is entitled to their own forms of belief... That just makes things more complicated doesn't it?

Well then..

What about Life?? Where did the first man and woman appear? How did the come here? How were they formed? If that's what we believe..aren't we all brothers and sisters?? so..why are we getting married? Or was there more than just Adam and Eve..or as others call it Adam and Hawa? Were there others that we haven't recognized? How did the first tree appear? how was water formed? how did life start existing?

Rain Rain Go Away!

Malaysia is lacking stars in the night sky =(





I want our sky to be filled with little glistening specks of light... They somehow make you feel better... Stupid clouds...

AS much as I dislike too much heat or complain about it.. I HATE it when it rains and I'm about to go somewhere. It spoils EVERYTHING... Why can't it rain after you get into a safe dry spot..It just has to rain everytime I go for tuition.. So friggin annoying DEI!!

Mojo Jo Jo

Heyya!! Yes yes it's a new year so I should start blogging again.. but honestly I've lost my blogging mojo.. Nothing that fascinating has come up yet.. Monday is our prefect installation..I'm ecstatic about it.. Our prefectorial board consists of Wan San, Hwee Jing, Lester and I.. I'm also very lazy to type right now.. so after we get installed I'll blog properley..well I'll try to at least.. =D


C'ya sweetz!